I mean really could I just get a break?

Have you ever had a day where you woke up and tried I mean really tried to have a good day and be in a good mood and things just kept getting worse? Well that's my life today. I feel so horrible. It's really funny how Satan tries to use things against you. Like I woke up today and it was just like everything is weighing on me. I don't feel good, I think I'm getting strep throat. But other than that it just feels like everything is about to fall apart. I really hate that I work 60 hours a week and feel like I can't take off from work even though I'm sick. So anyways I get to work and my ex boy friend calls just out of the blue. And I know that I'm not to talk to him. But it is so nice to have someone call that just lets me cry. He knows that I'm going to find a solution to my problems and that I don't want his advice, but he lets me cry to get it off my chest. I never have to worry about him throwing it in my face or being involved in it because he's never been involved with my family. He was my best friend and I never should have dated him. But I did and now I know I'm not supposed to have anything to do with him anymore, so I just don't. I don't really miss him, I think I just miss having someone there. And this whole "just dating" thing is getting on my nerves. I'm very much a commitment person, and I do things whole heartedly. I dont know how to just date. That's weird to me. I understand that he doesn't want to get hurt but loves a gamble right? You don't get to pick and choose. I guess everything will fall into place. I'm sure that there's a reason that everything is happening the way that it is. I just feel like it's trying to kill me in the process. I do have really great friends though that help me through it. Anyways I really need to get back to work. ~ Amber